i was brought to tears in church today. we are going through genesis and we hit the genealogies. a couple things really stood out to me. our pastor said a lot of christians gloss over the different names as they are rather insignificant to both us and history. i am absolutely guilty as charged in terms of glossing over the names in the genealogies. if i'm being honest - they are hard to pronounce and they are numerous. however, pastor mark pointed out that those names are not insignificant to God and that struck a chord.
he then went on to say that terah's family - including abram his son left ur of the chaldeans because he heard the voice of God and obeyed; showing a true and genuine God-given faith. we are to be like abram and obey when God calls. we are to trust, obey, and tell the world of God and His love. as we live our lives daily we need to replay the love of Jesus, His sacrifice, and the love that brought forth His sacrifice. our faith needs to be genuine and we need to be content where God has placed us in this life. it is our job to be open, proclaiming the Gospel, serving, and living separate of the culture of our towns; remembering that this world is not His elect's true home and that we serve a God that is sovereign and loves us. we ought to remember that when we gloss over those names that seem so insignificant to us that we too may be insignificant to others; yet we are not insignificant to God and He has given us a job to live out the Gospel.
following the sermon we partook in the sacrament of communion. while the elements were being dispersed, i began praying intently for my heart, belief, and that i will be a good mom and wife. i followed that prayer by pleading for the souls of buel and amiette. i prayed that God would pour into them a saving faith and that He would use my children in significant ways like abram, like shem, like noah, etc. tears started to well up in my eyes as i prayed that my children would know and love Jesus with all their heart and minds. i also prayed that the Lord would call them; even buel with his struggles, to live boldly and proclaim Jesus to the world. it was a very overwhelming moment for me. it was also beautiful and powerful.
this sermon reminded me that God cares and has a job for each of us and that His work for our lives does not discriminate...
my sweet little boy, my gorgeous miracle child and (one of) the joy(s) of my life was diagnosed with autism - moderate this past friday. we have been going through the process of getting him evaluated for the past 6 months and we finally got our official answer to the numerous concerns we have had. to be honest, it was not a real shock. we were expecting it and i knew a long time ago there was something amiss. i knew before anyone else. that being said, hearing an official diagnosis took my breathe away. it was as if the floor came out from underneath me and i have been hovering ever since. i know i need to hit the ground running as there is a lot that needs to be taken care of in order to get buel services that will help him learn essential communication and social skills, unfortunately, all i really want to do right now is stick my head in the sand all while having a huge sense of panic and urgency to get to work so i don't fail my son.
it is so hard. i never wanted this for my boy. i never wanted him to have to struggle. if i could take this burden from him i would in a heartbeat. but i know that our lives are not meant to be easy and that even though we may tread a seriously bumpy road, God will direct our steps. He will provide, hold, and keep us. my son may not be significant in history books (or maybe he will be one day... who knows...), but to God he is beautiful and significant. his road may look different than the road i had hoped to see him walk; but God cares and i fully trust and have faith that He knows best. while i still decompress and process everything that we were told... while i pick buel and myself up and get ready to take on these next steps for his life... i am trusting that God thinks buel is significant and that we are stepping out in genuine faith and remaining content where God has placed us. it's interesting that God brought us to southern california to live with family as we pay off debt. i wholly believe that God placed us here for more than just the opportunity to pay off debt. God's hand has been obviously in the details...
Lord help me to hold fast to you and remember your words.
But God chose what is foolish in the world to shame the wise; God chose what is weak in the world to shame the strong; God chose what is low and despised in the world, even things that are not, to bring to nothing things that are, so that no human being might boast in the presence of God.
- 1 Corinthians 1:27-29
he then went on to say that terah's family - including abram his son left ur of the chaldeans because he heard the voice of God and obeyed; showing a true and genuine God-given faith. we are to be like abram and obey when God calls. we are to trust, obey, and tell the world of God and His love. as we live our lives daily we need to replay the love of Jesus, His sacrifice, and the love that brought forth His sacrifice. our faith needs to be genuine and we need to be content where God has placed us in this life. it is our job to be open, proclaiming the Gospel, serving, and living separate of the culture of our towns; remembering that this world is not His elect's true home and that we serve a God that is sovereign and loves us. we ought to remember that when we gloss over those names that seem so insignificant to us that we too may be insignificant to others; yet we are not insignificant to God and He has given us a job to live out the Gospel.
following the sermon we partook in the sacrament of communion. while the elements were being dispersed, i began praying intently for my heart, belief, and that i will be a good mom and wife. i followed that prayer by pleading for the souls of buel and amiette. i prayed that God would pour into them a saving faith and that He would use my children in significant ways like abram, like shem, like noah, etc. tears started to well up in my eyes as i prayed that my children would know and love Jesus with all their heart and minds. i also prayed that the Lord would call them; even buel with his struggles, to live boldly and proclaim Jesus to the world. it was a very overwhelming moment for me. it was also beautiful and powerful.
this sermon reminded me that God cares and has a job for each of us and that His work for our lives does not discriminate...
Are not two sparrows sold for a penny? And not one of them will fall to the ground apart from your Father. But even the hairs of your head are all numbered. Fear not, therefore; you are of more value than many sparrows. - Matthew 10:29-31
my sweet little boy, my gorgeous miracle child and (one of) the joy(s) of my life was diagnosed with autism - moderate this past friday. we have been going through the process of getting him evaluated for the past 6 months and we finally got our official answer to the numerous concerns we have had. to be honest, it was not a real shock. we were expecting it and i knew a long time ago there was something amiss. i knew before anyone else. that being said, hearing an official diagnosis took my breathe away. it was as if the floor came out from underneath me and i have been hovering ever since. i know i need to hit the ground running as there is a lot that needs to be taken care of in order to get buel services that will help him learn essential communication and social skills, unfortunately, all i really want to do right now is stick my head in the sand all while having a huge sense of panic and urgency to get to work so i don't fail my son.it is so hard. i never wanted this for my boy. i never wanted him to have to struggle. if i could take this burden from him i would in a heartbeat. but i know that our lives are not meant to be easy and that even though we may tread a seriously bumpy road, God will direct our steps. He will provide, hold, and keep us. my son may not be significant in history books (or maybe he will be one day... who knows...), but to God he is beautiful and significant. his road may look different than the road i had hoped to see him walk; but God cares and i fully trust and have faith that He knows best. while i still decompress and process everything that we were told... while i pick buel and myself up and get ready to take on these next steps for his life... i am trusting that God thinks buel is significant and that we are stepping out in genuine faith and remaining content where God has placed us. it's interesting that God brought us to southern california to live with family as we pay off debt. i wholly believe that God placed us here for more than just the opportunity to pay off debt. God's hand has been obviously in the details...
Lord help me to hold fast to you and remember your words.
Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light. - Matthew 11:28-30
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