i recently read several passages in God's word that were heartfelt and beautiful, touching and convicting. its a well known passage of scripture; the story of the excellent wife, the notable proverbs 31 woman. she is a woman whom i hope to be - a woman that honors her husband, a woman who works hard to care and tend to her family, a woman who respects, trusts, and obeys God's commandments and decrees. oh to be the wife that God blesses with spiritual richness and boldness. my desire is for my husband to see God's glory throughout all avenues of my life. my heart wants to seek God more and seek myself less. my heart wants to be knowledgeable of those things that God loves, of His word, of His character, of His truth. i want to align my heart with the things that He has called and expects of His children. a life that is a poured out drink offering is my hope and true desire. i want to bring glory to God in all that i do and remember the sacrifice that Christ made for His elect; remember that God humbled Himself to become a man and died for the sins of the wicked - after living a perfect life and carrying out His goal. i want to be an excellent wife. i want to do good to my husband and cause him no harm. God help me to be an excellent wife.
life is so hectic at this very moment. we are theorizing and trying to make plans for our future and it causes a bit of anxiousness in mine and bud's heart. we are eager for the future, but there are still many things that we have to do in order to get there. and all the while, my heart yearns to hold a child of my own. this desire is so great and my arms are so empty. i love to scoop up my nephews and love them and kiss them and cherish them. it's that joy that i feel, when holding them, that i imagine is but a mere fraction of what their parents feel for them and of what i will feel for my own children. my desire to be an excellent wife, to prepare and care and tend to my family - becoming an excellent wife seems so far away because i have not yet given my husband a child or a family, other than myself, him and our little furry babies - monster truck and puttis.
however, life seems to continue on in a fast whirlwind while one constant remains. i may have 14 credit units in school this semester, while working 50+ hours a week, and fulfilling mandatory fieldwork for my class. i may have friends that i am trying to keep in touch with and make plans with and remain close with. i may have heaps of homework, a lifestyle change (take shape for life) in progress, and other responsibilities: applying for university for my b.a., making plans for hong kong (which looks like we are aiming to move out there in may 2014), vacations (which i am so looking forward too!), and other things - my heart still always aches to feel the breathe of a child of my own on my neck, to feel their movement within my womb, to feel the pains of childbirth and then the amazing joy upon delivery. all these feelings remain the same. God, make me an excellent wife and let me not falter with these desires, with my responsibilities. help and keep me from sin. keep me from envy and jealousy, keep me from being covetous. i love you, God and want to be a jewel in your eyes as well as my husband's. bless me with a child so that i can give my husband a family. bless our plans and endeavors. bless my schooling and everything else that seems to be creeping up on us. i love you, Lord - and I lift my voice. amen.
to be an excellent wife - its such a big job and i pray that i can be that wife one day.
life is so hectic at this very moment. we are theorizing and trying to make plans for our future and it causes a bit of anxiousness in mine and bud's heart. we are eager for the future, but there are still many things that we have to do in order to get there. and all the while, my heart yearns to hold a child of my own. this desire is so great and my arms are so empty. i love to scoop up my nephews and love them and kiss them and cherish them. it's that joy that i feel, when holding them, that i imagine is but a mere fraction of what their parents feel for them and of what i will feel for my own children. my desire to be an excellent wife, to prepare and care and tend to my family - becoming an excellent wife seems so far away because i have not yet given my husband a child or a family, other than myself, him and our little furry babies - monster truck and puttis.
however, life seems to continue on in a fast whirlwind while one constant remains. i may have 14 credit units in school this semester, while working 50+ hours a week, and fulfilling mandatory fieldwork for my class. i may have friends that i am trying to keep in touch with and make plans with and remain close with. i may have heaps of homework, a lifestyle change (take shape for life) in progress, and other responsibilities: applying for university for my b.a., making plans for hong kong (which looks like we are aiming to move out there in may 2014), vacations (which i am so looking forward too!), and other things - my heart still always aches to feel the breathe of a child of my own on my neck, to feel their movement within my womb, to feel the pains of childbirth and then the amazing joy upon delivery. all these feelings remain the same. God, make me an excellent wife and let me not falter with these desires, with my responsibilities. help and keep me from sin. keep me from envy and jealousy, keep me from being covetous. i love you, God and want to be a jewel in your eyes as well as my husband's. bless me with a child so that i can give my husband a family. bless our plans and endeavors. bless my schooling and everything else that seems to be creeping up on us. i love you, Lord - and I lift my voice. amen.
to be an excellent wife - its such a big job and i pray that i can be that wife one day.
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