let's see if i can remember how to blog. it's been a while and so much has happened in my life since the last time i wrote...
on december 10, 2015, i gave birth to my sweet little girl - amiette river. yes, i realize that means that she's already a year old. and no, i don't know how that is even possible? she is the most precious little lady that i've ever had the pleasure to meet and share life with. she lights up every room she enters. she is sassy, funny, sweet, smart, captivating, and beautiful. i cannot even begin to thank God enough for all the blessings he has bestowed upon me; especially in the form of my expanded family. it was not long ago we wondered if children were in God's will for our life. we hoped, prayed, and cried with open hands - ready to embrace a child or no child. thankfully, God saw fit to grow our family by two and i am so grateful.
since having amiette, my job with my nephews ended, i stay home with the kiddos, we moved back to california, and have been planting roots here in southern california. it's been a blessing, regardless of how much i miss my family in maryland. we have been able to get some solid help in some major areas of our life. buel is growing and continues to surprise us with all that he is learning. he is funny, sweet, smart, handsome, and a happy gentle giant of a little boy. he turned 3. three!! let me repeat myself... how is it possible that my first little love is already a three year old.
life.
life scales a mountainous terrain full of peaks and valleys with plenty of sun and storms. currently, life has been very stormy; yet not without joy. Jesus, my husband, and my children give me so much joy that it would be a lie to say otherwise. nonetheless, it appears that i am in valley. there is just so much on my mind and plate, both personally and globally that my heart feels very discouraged.
let's talk about our world. we have a new president. believe it or not - donald trump is president of the united states of america.
take a minute to think about that. it's a rather fascinating scenario, to say the least.
the entire presidential campaign season was a cluster of disgusting behavior from the majority of the candidates. animals in zoos behave better... and now we have our president and the country is in disarray. people are rioting and mourning in the streets. others are touting their excitement with pride. it is hard because the divide within the country and even within my own circle of friends is extremely apparent and out in the open. i knew that a lot of my friends and acquaintances held different opinions on big ticket issues, but i did not realize that it would become so polarizing, awkward and painful.
anyone who knows me is aware of my passion and love for children. it is also no surprise when i say that i have, for years, fought, debated, cried, and prayed for the end of abortion. my love and passion includes the safety of the unborn and for women to realize that abortion is in fact damaging to them; not just physically and emotionally, but it hurts us all. i want women to realize that we are more than our fertility. that abortion is the opposite of liberation and it invalidates our femininity.
and before anyone flags my post, yells at me and calls me names. if you know me at all - these are things you should already know about me. so lets not get it twisted. hopefully you know that my heart is pure in my beliefs. i mean no disrespect and i have no hatred for anyone who believes differently. but i won't deny that the other side of this debate is a very stark contrast.
that being said - my frustration hit an all time high today with the women's march. it was supposed to be a walk of solidarity. however, it became very apparent that it was very much an abortion rights walk and those who did not agree were discouraged from attending. i felt completely marginalized because i didn't fit the mold of what the world says a female think and be.
i am raising a little lady. i want to be able to join other women in unity on a large scale and show my daughter what unity can look like. however, today was not that day as many of the leaders of the marches were not inclusive and that was really disappointing. as i scroll through facebook, which has become pretty unbearable, i see a lot of inconsistencies. i am raising my children in a world where they are going to be told that they cannot disagree with the masses because they will not be welcome and they will be shunned. that any resistance to the majority will result in name calling, vulgar insults, and possibly even physical threats. this is not what i want for my children and i am praying that God shows me exactly how to raise them and prepare them.
on december 10, 2015, i gave birth to my sweet little girl - amiette river. yes, i realize that means that she's already a year old. and no, i don't know how that is even possible? she is the most precious little lady that i've ever had the pleasure to meet and share life with. she lights up every room she enters. she is sassy, funny, sweet, smart, captivating, and beautiful. i cannot even begin to thank God enough for all the blessings he has bestowed upon me; especially in the form of my expanded family. it was not long ago we wondered if children were in God's will for our life. we hoped, prayed, and cried with open hands - ready to embrace a child or no child. thankfully, God saw fit to grow our family by two and i am so grateful.
since having amiette, my job with my nephews ended, i stay home with the kiddos, we moved back to california, and have been planting roots here in southern california. it's been a blessing, regardless of how much i miss my family in maryland. we have been able to get some solid help in some major areas of our life. buel is growing and continues to surprise us with all that he is learning. he is funny, sweet, smart, handsome, and a happy gentle giant of a little boy. he turned 3. three!! let me repeat myself... how is it possible that my first little love is already a three year old.
life.
life scales a mountainous terrain full of peaks and valleys with plenty of sun and storms. currently, life has been very stormy; yet not without joy. Jesus, my husband, and my children give me so much joy that it would be a lie to say otherwise. nonetheless, it appears that i am in valley. there is just so much on my mind and plate, both personally and globally that my heart feels very discouraged.
let's talk about our world. we have a new president. believe it or not - donald trump is president of the united states of america.
take a minute to think about that. it's a rather fascinating scenario, to say the least.
the entire presidential campaign season was a cluster of disgusting behavior from the majority of the candidates. animals in zoos behave better... and now we have our president and the country is in disarray. people are rioting and mourning in the streets. others are touting their excitement with pride. it is hard because the divide within the country and even within my own circle of friends is extremely apparent and out in the open. i knew that a lot of my friends and acquaintances held different opinions on big ticket issues, but i did not realize that it would become so polarizing, awkward and painful.
anyone who knows me is aware of my passion and love for children. it is also no surprise when i say that i have, for years, fought, debated, cried, and prayed for the end of abortion. my love and passion includes the safety of the unborn and for women to realize that abortion is in fact damaging to them; not just physically and emotionally, but it hurts us all. i want women to realize that we are more than our fertility. that abortion is the opposite of liberation and it invalidates our femininity.
and before anyone flags my post, yells at me and calls me names. if you know me at all - these are things you should already know about me. so lets not get it twisted. hopefully you know that my heart is pure in my beliefs. i mean no disrespect and i have no hatred for anyone who believes differently. but i won't deny that the other side of this debate is a very stark contrast.
that being said - my frustration hit an all time high today with the women's march. it was supposed to be a walk of solidarity. however, it became very apparent that it was very much an abortion rights walk and those who did not agree were discouraged from attending. i felt completely marginalized because i didn't fit the mold of what the world says a female think and be.
i am raising a little lady. i want to be able to join other women in unity on a large scale and show my daughter what unity can look like. however, today was not that day as many of the leaders of the marches were not inclusive and that was really disappointing. as i scroll through facebook, which has become pretty unbearable, i see a lot of inconsistencies. i am raising my children in a world where they are going to be told that they cannot disagree with the masses because they will not be welcome and they will be shunned. that any resistance to the majority will result in name calling, vulgar insults, and possibly even physical threats. this is not what i want for my children and i am praying that God shows me exactly how to raise them and prepare them.
"If the world hates you, know that it has hated me before it hated you. If you were of the world, the world would love you as its own; but because you are not of the world, but I chose you out of the world, therefore the world hates you. Remember the word that I said to you: 'A servant is not greater than his master.' If they persecuted me, they will also persecute you. If they kept my word, they will also keep yours." - John 15:18-20
i have never understood these words more... as i try to trudge to a peak in life's journey, i will be holding fast to the words of my Savior and continue to trust His sovereignty over my children and in my husband's life as well.
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